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* Photo mine; gift wrapped by Lorraine of PaperBird~

December 30 – Gift

Prompt: Gift. This month, gifts and gift-giving can seem inescapable. What’s the most memorable gift, tangible or emotional, you received this year?   author:  Holly Root

Gift of self, that sounds odd, I know, but so many people have talked me out of my dreams. I was made to feel,like it was a lottery ticket chance.This past summer, I had a scare that woke me up. It made me realize I didn't want to wonder, when I'm old n' gray,wonder, "What If".  I started talking more courageous steps and put myself out there, I sent art submissions, I started writing poems. What did I have to lose?  Fear had kept me, from moving forward. Fear, that I wasn't good enough, that started when I was talked out of going to college, for what I wanted to do.  I allowed it to happen, but the creative side of me, assessed this talk, as they didn't think I was good enough. My family, my roots didn't believe in me. It could of gone the other way, I'll show you, but I didn't.  I guess, I feared what if they are right, what will I do for work, what will become of me.... so I went the safe route and went to a Business college instead.  My life as a military spouse, all the moving has made a career difficult. I have worked, but when you evaluate my resume and see the time line of changed jobs, questions arise. This causes a lot of  employers, to be discouraged in hiring me. Train her and she will leave, not a great investment. Some took a chance on me and I enjoyed those jobs, but I always felt a void.

I know in the grand scheme of things, we can't always have our dream job. I fwe attempt to do what we love in small doses or volunteer in those facets, we find aspects of joy and life is more positive and happy!  Give yourself the gift of passion, even if it is in small doses. A class, a behind the scenes format, volunteer doing something you love, try it out. Enter the worlds you would like to be part of. When we have our foot in the door of the world we dreamed off, sometimes it is enough. 

"The intuitive mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant. We have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift." - Albert Einstein