Has anyone said something to you, that took your breath away, cut deep into your soul and tore your will into shreds. Words so cruel, your insides feel revealed, like raw meat and your breath is being sucked out of your lungs. You can't breath, the bile is choking you. You try to speak, you can not, a shark ripping your flesh would be less painful. You wonder now, how you are going to cope. You stance, the axis of your being is off. Everything has lost it's color. It is a tilted universe of what was and what is. You walk the earth, in a zombie state. You function, but your life's energy is sucked out...gone. Gone where?! Will I find it again, the real me....when all I want to do is stay in bed and escape in my dreams, the colorful, vibrant ones that my soul paints. Perhaps, if i try to create, to draw, paint, sing, play music, write... The real me, will be revealed again, she will appear. Art has saved me; Can it save me again?!
(me testing my writing wings)
Comments
Someone get this woman a hug...
Yvonne,
I'm really okay~
Thanks for the concern, guess it is pretty dark. The weird thing is the collage, I made years ago, I zoomed in on it and was stunned at the words that stuck out: churning, grossly, bore of a gun, mental....I didn't see those words before; Odd!
and i LOVE that you are testing your writing wings and putting yourself out there!!!
you are so inspiring Ellie!!!
xoxoxo
happy tuesday sweets
k
One of the worst was when my second wife told me as we were heading towards our divorce that we had nothing more to talk about. For a couple years I was convinced she was wrong, but I eventually came to agree with her. Now we're both in agreement, we're both wrong, but I no longer really care whether we talk or not.
Good writing Ellie.
Lee
Tossing It Out
Oh, I was feeling so sad. You are such a dear and sweet soul, I'm so glad to read that you are fine!
I can very much relate to the pain in your piece. And I can also relate to the going within and finding a rebirth of self.
Sending you hugs for the remembered dark places we all have been in this life. And sending you smiles for the smiles your sweet comments on my blog gave me!
Sally
And I like the photo, "Time Heals".
Nice work my friend.
I can definilty relate to this post. It happened to me this week. And boy was I furious. And I do not get mad to often. But it sucked the life out of me. Made me examine myself deeply.
Art does save people in all sorts of ways, just like friendship
There will always be those that want to knock you off your axis... sometimes with words.. sometimes the absence of words... Hang in there.... focus on your positive friends, lovely writing and art!!!
Now reading the comments.. maybe this is all past tense.. lovely art.. and still worth ignoring the nay sayers.. ahahaha.. xxx Julie
Loved Alex's response: get this woman a hug! --perfect!
*sending hug*
it. Okay, I'm done...back to my regularly scheduled program...
Next time I will try to test my wings, I will try something else, mysterious,alluring or perhaps
charming.