Poets United prompt #46 is Monster. I first think of those childhood nightmares that permanently scar some of us. Then I think of someone who left a lasting impact on me. I had to remove her from my life. She tried to ruin me and my marriage. YOU are thinking another woman, yes, but it wasn't a mistress it was my Mother-in-law.
Green bile in throat
Rage in jealous eyes
Fear in lost soul
Claws grab and scratch my raw edges
Nostrils flare as flames from mouth ignite
dark haunted hate revealed, devil’s forked tongue
spews barbs of cruelty
Blonde hair surrounds, the aging cherubs face,
laugh lines only slight indents in pudgy cheeks
blue eyes swim in milky toxic thoughts
Fools unaware of her game of cat n' mouse
Shaken from doubt
Anxiety knots in brow
questions me, my actions
did I do or say something?
guilty shadowed me for years
couldn't play game
couldn't win
I quit playing
Toxic terror rules
until you stop being the punching bag
Wonder who she tortures now?
* I couldn't take the abuse and walked away. It was actually a gathering of three women. My MIL, SIL and the sweet looking grandmother. I told my husband, I was no longer taking it anymore. I removed myself from their lives. Game over...
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Comments
Glad you're rid of them.
Hart-I told my husband,"You and the kids, go see them" but the cat n' mouse games had to end for me.
It is sad; I guess I wasn't good enough?! Sorry you have had to go through this.
Heavens2Betsy-I love your name; Yes, it seeped in and it's effects lasted for awhile. I knew it had to end. She was getting joy from it and I was in despair. Thank you~
Yvonne,
I admire you so very much. It takes sheer courage to do what you did in life.
There are times when enough, is more than enough.
I also know how good it feels, to put these kind of experiences into your own words.
Excellent Ella.
Eileen
Eileen-Thank you; It took me a while. I tried to find a way around it, but anxiety and trying to understand why she would continue to be mean. It was the only way out; can't play cat n' mouse, if mouse leaves.
Alex- Thank you for saying it. A comment about my weight fed the situation. My MIL is obese; my SIL has an eating disorder. I became the punching bag...
Mary-It took me awhile, but it was making my life hell and I saw the pleasure she received in my pain. I had enough...
Yvonne-Thanks for your kind words and visiting me~
Luana-I hoped when I married I would have an extended family. My family is small, didn't work out that way. Thank you~
I fear the main damage is I hesitate with people, sometimes, if I get uncomfortable. xXx
Thanks for your comment.
Yvonne.
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