I am sorry I have been away-I had a bad allergy reaction. I thought about going to the ER, but the thought of it gave me more anxiety. I started to feel better, after some mega doses of Benadryl and lots of sleep. After, the anxiety left and my hives faded, a sinus infection decided to pay me a visit. My anxiety started with a food related allergy. Damn soy-it is in everything! I am trying to keep a journal of what I eat-so I will be more aware. Sometimes I think eating out is like playing a high stakes gambling game, in Las Vegas. Yeah, I know I lost big time!
My husband and family were watching scary movies-so I hung out in other corners of the house. Sometimes the music alone would give me that nails on chalkboard feel. It probably didn't help I was reading a book that fueled my anxiety further and yet I couldn't put it down. Oh, you want to know which book? This one-at times made me feel like I was being punched in the gut. I had to put it away-but I was entranced in the story and had to go peek. And more peeking lead me to continue. The whole past week has been a dizzy dance. I hope you are doing well-I have missed you!
Yesterday my daughter convinced me to go with her to mall. We needed to finish up her her back to school shopping. What a trip-I was discussing an idea I have to do an online class. I was using a fake crow to demonstrate-let's just say I was caught making a fool out of myself. I'm okay with it-I mean if I decide to go down this path-I can't let that stop me. I asked my daughter, "Do I embarrass you?" She told me, I was her best friend and she loves me just the way I am. The only thing that wears her out a bit-is my rambling idea list. Maybe I will learn to edit myself-just a bit!
Sloth Dance
Sloth like
My husband and family were watching scary movies-so I hung out in other corners of the house. Sometimes the music alone would give me that nails on chalkboard feel. It probably didn't help I was reading a book that fueled my anxiety further and yet I couldn't put it down. Oh, you want to know which book? This one-at times made me feel like I was being punched in the gut. I had to put it away-but I was entranced in the story and had to go peek. And more peeking lead me to continue. The whole past week has been a dizzy dance. I hope you are doing well-I have missed you!
Yesterday my daughter convinced me to go with her to mall. We needed to finish up her her back to school shopping. What a trip-I was discussing an idea I have to do an online class. I was using a fake crow to demonstrate-let's just say I was caught making a fool out of myself. I'm okay with it-I mean if I decide to go down this path-I can't let that stop me. I asked my daughter, "Do I embarrass you?" She told me, I was her best friend and she loves me just the way I am. The only thing that wears her out a bit-is my rambling idea list. Maybe I will learn to edit myself-just a bit!
Margaret gave us a challenge to write a poem about a piece of art which reflected the mood of this artistic interpretation:
Stillness. Silence. Solitude.
I love these three words-so not part of my world, but I do love having quiet time to reflect, to write, to work through a creative idea.
Edvard Munch "The Girl in the Window" (detail) 1893
"For as long as I can remember I have suffered from a deep feeling of anxiety which I have tried to express in my art.”
- Edvard Munch
- Edvard Munch
Woman on the Verandah, 1924 -by Edvard Munch
When I have anxiety I crave these three S's.
Sloth Dance
Sloth like
I wish to escape
only hear ocean's heart
entwined with mine
entwined with mine
in blueness I linger
salty white caps nudge me
towards huge water lapping thoughts
drifting in n' out of blue n' gold
my thumping head tosses in my storm
floating arms embrace me
Tiny dots of light dance
as dawn's secret breaks and drapes
silver strands of wonder
sunlight tickles my toes inviting me to
follow sandy carpet towards
treasure mapped hope
X
I want to give a shout out to Adam Champion! If you get a chance to visit him-he is a talented poet who has started a facebook page called Independent Poetry Society! He likes to share poems, feature poetic blogs and holds contests. He hopes to publish other poets(the winners of his poetry contests) in an annual poetry journal. He was so kind and featured my Iris Romance poem. I am sorry Adam for the delay! Adam is in the Army and writes poetry-he is very talented! If you get a chance stop by and like his page or offer a kind word! We all need feedback~
Thank you Adam it was a true honor to be selected and thank you for your service to our country and tell your family thank you, too!
Over in the Garden, Hedgewitch inspired us to write a Fib poem-I thought about the sea and my anxiety and went along the same lines as my above poem.
"Fib is an experimental Western poetry form,…based on the Fibonacci sequence. The typical fib is a six line, 20 syllable poem with a syllable count by line of 1/1/2/3/5/8 - with as many syllables per line as the line's corresponding place in the Fibonacci sequence... The only restriction on a Fib is that the syllable count follow the Fibonacci sequence…"
It was suggested we could write free verse and do a word count instead of syllables.
I am the Nautilus shell in the storm.
*****
Blue
notes
spiral inwards
I
towards huge water lapping thoughts
drifting in n' out of blue n' gold
my thumping head tosses in my storm
floating arms embrace me
Tiny dots of light dance
as dawn's secret breaks and drapes
silver strands of wonder
sunlight tickles my toes inviting me to
follow sandy carpet towards
treasure mapped hope
X
© Ellen Wilson
I want to give a shout out to Adam Champion! If you get a chance to visit him-he is a talented poet who has started a facebook page called Independent Poetry Society! He likes to share poems, feature poetic blogs and holds contests. He hopes to publish other poets(the winners of his poetry contests) in an annual poetry journal. He was so kind and featured my Iris Romance poem. I am sorry Adam for the delay! Adam is in the Army and writes poetry-he is very talented! If you get a chance stop by and like his page or offer a kind word! We all need feedback~
Thank you Adam it was a true honor to be selected and thank you for your service to our country and tell your family thank you, too!
Over in the Garden, Hedgewitch inspired us to write a Fib poem-I thought about the sea and my anxiety and went along the same lines as my above poem.
"Fib is an experimental Western poetry form,…based on the Fibonacci sequence. The typical fib is a six line, 20 syllable poem with a syllable count by line of 1/1/2/3/5/8 - with as many syllables per line as the line's corresponding place in the Fibonacci sequence... The only restriction on a Fib is that the syllable count follow the Fibonacci sequence…"
It was suggested we could write free verse and do a word count instead of syllables.
I am the Nautilus shell in the storm.
Blue
notes
spiral inwards
silver eye threaded
tiny dots of light dance
white caps toss me a treasured beacon glow
I
listen
escape storm
salty white caps
of you linger tossing me
light dances as home's golden drapes open wide
calm
blows
over me
dolphins toss me
towards dawn's timeless movie stage
golden ratio reveals strands of hope's timeless treasure
I
drift
deep blue
wonder loses me
waves gently sing a lullaby
love revealed in silver strands of moonlit serenade
blows
over me
dolphins toss me
towards dawn's timeless movie stage
golden ratio reveals strands of hope's timeless treasure
I
drift
deep blue
wonder loses me
waves gently sing a lullaby
love revealed in silver strands of moonlit serenade
© Ellen Wilson
Comments
Really sorry you had such a bad allergic reaction! Hives are no fun. Been there done that. No more stress. Tell your husband you need to just stay home an be quietly creative all day.
That's a great quote by Munch, and in a full life of work and hassle, we all can relate I think to how alien solitude becomes, and how attractive.
Your fibonacci verse was right on the money--I especially liked 'dawn's timeless movie stage..' that really was a visual! Thanks so much for participating, Ella.
Hope you're feeling better - it looks like it - your poetry is really good :)
Take care, be well and enjoy whatever downtime you can scrounge :)
I have connected with Adam as well ~
Have a wonderful weekend ~
My husband got hives right after we moved to ABQ and he had to go to the emergency room and get a shot. It worked though.
I'm sorry you're allergic to soy. You couldn't eat what I eat then.
I love sloths, and your poem made me smile. I'll definitely check out the site you mentioned as well. Take care.
I hope you're feeling better.
K
I love Sloth Dance. Really gorgeous.
in quiet place, with no noise or TV, before do 5-10 minutes meditation with deep breathing. Allergy pretty much connected with emotions of fear.
Beautiful poem, love it very much!
Your poetry is beautiful - creativity is at maximum. Most children learn to edit us out early! :)
Here's hoping you find a bit of rest and peace.
Susie-The dance was me tossing and turning in bed-no fun! Thank you :D
I am happy to be back to my normal~
Renee-Thank you! I hope you have a fabulous week ;D I am working on it, lol!
Yolanda-Thank you! Sorry you know this dance! Thank you so much :D
Yes, my daughter does edit me a lot. When we go grab Iced coffee and shop-I have a captive audience-tee,hee. You are sweet~ @>------
I loved your poem ;D
Humbird-Thank you! I will try this-mmh, this explains a lot! I do have a lot of fear these days-a lot of changes in my life. Thank you I will give it a try :D
Thank you so much~
Wanda-Thank you! I have had it happen before. I will have to learn to be more cautious~ :D
Mama Zen-I am sorry to hear this~ It is autoimmune isn't it~
Helen-Thank you so much! Yes, I will be good and cook at home :D
Loredana-Thank you :D I do have a fondness for the sea~
Kay-I am sorry you know~ Thank you!
We all can use calm n' hope :D
Jabblog-Thank you so much! :D I am~
I want to try again-thank you so much!
Dezzy-I get allergy symptoms. It cause my thyroid to go into hyper mode which creates more anxiety-not fun! Yes, it difficult-I cook a lot!
Grapeling-Thank you! I think we all have had our time with the Sloth Dance :D
Marian-Thank you! Oh, I haven't forgotten the custard recipe. You know the Grapenut dance ;D I will share on FB
Lolamouse-Thank you! Yes, she is! I bet yours is too ;D Thank you so much~ I prefer to be a book or movie sloth~
Kerry-Thank you! I am glad you felt calm :D The sea does this for me~
Manicddaily-Thank you-it was like you described-real and raw~ Thank you for your kind words :D
L.Diane-Thank you! I can have a bit in a blue moon, but I do have to be cautious~ Sorry about hubby-I am glad he went! I am not sure if it would help me-it throws my meds off. I appear fine other than the anxiety and hives.
Grace-Thank you! Yes, Adam is a generous soul. I am glad you liked it~ :D
Mark-Thank you :D Yes, I am scrounge up random moments-you know how that goes!
Sherry-Thank you! Yes, it was wonderful-a gift~ :D
Brian-Thank you! I know I want sand between my toes, too! Nothing like the sandy shore :D
Hedge-Thank you! I loved your challenge and enjoyed writing about the sea. I am better-I do think we all know and need solitude-just not in long doses :D
Sam-YOU really know how to bring the edge! ;D Thank you~
You are kind
Mary-Thank you! Yes, we all know a sloth dance :D It is nice to be back-phew
Alex-I am sorry you know this feeling! Yes, a sloth dances in bed twisting and turning the blankets-lol
Thanks Alex it is a great idea ;D