I had internet issues, yesterday, so I will be playing catch up with those of you-who visited me yesterday~ The weather was crazy here-strong winds and rain.
I am struggling with my emotions right now. When my son was ill-there was this quickening pace as more and more doctors appeared. Ten doctors-later and still the unknown of what, why and how? I hate the void-but I know I need to deal with my emotions. I am great at tucking them away-it doesn't work.
I need to embrace the goodness in my thoughts, as well, but I am still stuck on they don't know. I feel weak, drained and sleep deprived-worrying. As, I type this post I told myself -Self deal with whatever emotion arrives today, but I also need to find healthy ways to process my feelings, besides trying to eat all the popcorn in the world.
*Oh, and if you heard the latest news worthy food survey about popcorn causing lung cancer-well, if they tested me-they would know it isn't true. My parents met in a theater and I practically grew up in one. I eat popcorn almost every day. I make my own the old fashion way-so was the study on microwave popped corn?! I do not know. Popcorn is my comfort food-it brings back memories of the wink and nod of my father in the tiny black portal booth, splicing stars-I mean film. He magically blended the film-no shaky change overs. He loved the roar of the crowd, the excitement of showing stars on a silver screen and the way movies allow us to escape our world and transform us-magic. I always thought of his as a magician. Popcorn connects me to wonderful memories. My father was like popcorn-light, fluffy and filled with joy-okay, a bit of hot air, too. He was a dreamer-I am, too.
I am struggling with my emotions right now. When my son was ill-there was this quickening pace as more and more doctors appeared. Ten doctors-later and still the unknown of what, why and how? I hate the void-but I know I need to deal with my emotions. I am great at tucking them away-it doesn't work.
I need to embrace the goodness in my thoughts, as well, but I am still stuck on they don't know. I feel weak, drained and sleep deprived-worrying. As, I type this post I told myself -Self deal with whatever emotion arrives today, but I also need to find healthy ways to process my feelings, besides trying to eat all the popcorn in the world.
*Oh, and if you heard the latest news worthy food survey about popcorn causing lung cancer-well, if they tested me-they would know it isn't true. My parents met in a theater and I practically grew up in one. I eat popcorn almost every day. I make my own the old fashion way-so was the study on microwave popped corn?! I do not know. Popcorn is my comfort food-it brings back memories of the wink and nod of my father in the tiny black portal booth, splicing stars-I mean film. He magically blended the film-no shaky change overs. He loved the roar of the crowd, the excitement of showing stars on a silver screen and the way movies allow us to escape our world and transform us-magic. I always thought of his as a magician. Popcorn connects me to wonderful memories. My father was like popcorn-light, fluffy and filled with joy-okay, a bit of hot air, too. He was a dreamer-I am, too.
Pixar movie: Inside Out
I haven't seen this movie-but I noticed it has the rainbow appeal-seven colors and perhaps I need to deal with and process my emotions like a rainbow. I need to cry after the storm, deal with my anger, my fear, my sadness and the joy-my son survived the madness of this virus, and my distress. Today, I will watch this movie. The main character is an eleven year old girl, named Riley. Her family has to move and she has to deal with all of her emotions. Have you see the film? Do you struggle with your emotions or do you have healthy ways to express them?
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The doctors might not know, but God knows.
Saw the movie - it was good, but very sad in parts. Probably not one I'd watch again.
It does catch up to you doesn't it. I'll move past it, sometimes you just have to wallow in it and then shake it off. Gosh it that were only easier! :)
Popcorn caused cancer. Silly people!
Yes, silly people~ Another damn survey..let's spend this money elsewhere~
Sherry-Thank you! Yes, my dad was part magician, musician and comedian. Yes, life can change so fast it makes our heads spin. I do think it zapped my thyroid. Maybe this is why I feel like a walking zombie. Yes, I plan on visiting him later this week. One day at a time-right, Sherry!
Stephanie-I wish I didn't like it, so much! Thank you, so much for your kind thoughts!
L.Diane-Exactly! lol (I had to use this E word)
Nick-Thank you! Oh, that is sweet about your daughter and thanks for sharing this with me~ Yay, pass the popcorn-lol
Sweetie.... let the tears flow... You have to ride the tidal wave of your emotions to get through them. It is natural. You are a Taurus... we are emotional people. And we often turn to food for comfort. But we also turn to BEAUTY and CREATIVITY... so those are much more positive way to deal with emotions.
Sending you great, big, hugs!!!!
Take care....
Em-Musing-I am so sorry you are dealing with Shingles~ Thank you, for sharing with me and yes, we do need to get it out~ I am going to go run/walk and pound a pillow. Your coconut, cinnamon creation sounds yummy~ Do take care and I hear oatmeal is good to soak in and Aveeno Oatmeal bath helps a lot. Take care!