Time Out


Today was a rare day; I was alone for a bit.  Alone to gather my thoughts; I had many things to do...
the dishes were calling me, the garden, the laundry, the dog, etc.  This can wait...

 Yes, aROMAtherapy...I might be making green tomato pickles, soon...
 No, I am not going to show you my laundry...lol     Our beagle, Buster Brown, yes the kids named him; No he doesn't live in a shoe.   He thinks he can run around the yard, when my husband was on leave, he let him.  Buster will come for him, when he calls, but not for me.   He wanted to chase this guest, in our back yard.  I grabbed him and dragged him to his leash.  Ms. Turtle, I believe is  laying eggs...
I then said, enough, I am going for a walk to clear my head...  I have to come up with another plan of action.
I have some back issues and have been referred to pain management.   I do not want pain meds...they make me feel like I'm sleep walking through life.   I do not want another band-aid.

 I went for a walk...trying to figure out my options, perhaps write a book, about a woman dealing with pain.  She goes to the ER with a gun, or she blackmails a neurologist, who is having an affair with a nurse, to perform her surgery, or she finally has the surgery and they find she isn't human, at all....Nah, not my style~ 
I will keep on walking in these shoes....  In the mean time, I am trying to find beauty in everyday.
I am trying to see the glass  half  full!   I still can walk, I am lucky to be here, I am lucky I had back surgery, I am lucky to have an amazing family, friends and blog followers~


I went to the Farmer's Market today.    I wish I had taken my camera; next time...
It is important to remember to take time out when you can and enjoy the simple things in life; One never knows what tomorrow may bring.   The seasons of our soul, bring attention to new details as we age.
My Dr reminded me, "You aren't 29", while he is in his late 60's recovering from a torn Achilles Tendon,
complaining it didn't heal, 100%.   (Yes, my eyebrows are arched, as I typed that line) I look at my life, I know that I, must be patient and try to see the good.  The pain, reminds me of the bad...what I have gone through.  I had back surgery, after having sciatica down both legs for 3 months.  I am lucky and was pain free for about 4yrs~

I have seen miracles and know they exists, but also know that pain can erode joy if you let it.  I can't let my pain win...   I need to remember to do the best that I can, no matter what and live one day at a time~



Comments

Stephen Tremp said…
What is it with people taking pictures of their feet and shoes. This is like the fifth blog today I've seen this. Is it National Take A Pic Of Your Feet Day? Must be. And I like the wine cork message. Thanks.

Stephen Tremp
Ellie said…
Hi Stephen,
You make me laugh; lol~ Yes, didn't you know, it is...take a photo of yourself, don't show anything, but your feet or hands~ ;-D
Sherry Blue Sky said…
Oh Ellie, do I ever relate to this post! First of all, the photos are GLORIOUS. I love the line I'll keep walking in these shoes......and pain. I have lived with chronic pain, on a daily basis, since 1996.I got so used to it that now I only notice what DEGREE of pain there is. Sometimes it is severe and that is not so great - but sometimes it is tolerable and I just carry on doing what I need to do. I dont remember any more what it was like to not have pain, so this is the New Normal. It is doable.

I had an attack of sciatica too, recently, and still had to hobble over to the city to be with Jeff during chemo. (Cant catch a break, sometimes!) I was surprised at how painful that was, relieved when it eased up.

So this post really spoke to me. I hope your back is improving and that you can get enough rest for it to mend and heal....keep me posted.........thank you for your awesome comment on my complicated plots poem........you really "get" what I'm saying and I so appreciate it. I am just going in to post a little true story of someone's near death experience - not mine, thankfully, hee hee. I am trying hard to have a "near-LIFE experience" these days!

Yes, one day at a time.......and flow with the river...........
Jules said…
This is wonderful post with beautiful images,the cantaloupe is my favorite. While I do not have pain such as yours I think of mine as a measuring stick. More pain, more progress. Keep your chin up.
Jennifer said…
sending you a great big hug my dear. what you are going through is difficult. stay strong. I know you will come out on top. and even if you don't write those proposed books, keeping writing because your words speak directly to me.
Amy said…
Thanks for stopping at my blog, hope you come back again soon!

You certainly found the beauty in the details, as shown by these photos. This is a nice little photo story. Hope your back is feeling a bit better today!
arlee bird said…
A healthy dose of optimism and slowing down for the simple pleasures of life can work wonders. I agree with you about pain meds. Maybe there is a message in pain we should be paying attention to instead of just trying to get rid of it and "sleepwalk through life".

Lee
Tossing It Out
Hang in there, Ellie,
and... uh...
leave the guns at home.

Ellie, don't take your guns to town!

~ "Lonesome Dogg" McD-Fens
Ellie said…
Lonesome Dogg-I don't own a gun; lol Hubby does, but I don't use them. Funny, I now can hear that song in my head~

Lee-Message is something is wrong, maybe one of my screws has moved. I have several,holding me together. I didn't say loose, lol!
Dr won't refer me; He has 2 more chances, then I go above him and file a report. I like the man, so I guess, one last attempt, is to ask nicely for a referral... Then I whip out my sword(pen) and file a report!

Amy-Thanks Amy, I will visit you again! It was fun to do a photo story...

Jennifer-Yeah, I don't think those books are for me to write. The one I'd like to write, is true and you know what they say, "the truth is stranger than fiction"...it is~Thank you; Your words have the same affect on me!!!

Jules-Thank you; I will come see you soon! Measuring stick...I will think of that~

Sherry-I like that Near-Life Experience! I know there are people in more pain and less. It is
a difficult road to walk, especially when you can't convince people it is real. I am swollen; I think this is standard procedure for backs. Treat the symptoms, get them out of the office. When does the time line end? When it is discovered it is more. I ran into a woman in a craft store. She just started talking about her back pain. She had gone to Dr for 3yrs...finally, found out what was wrong: Cancer... I don't understand the medical community...sometimes wonderful, other times dreadful! Thanks for sharing so much of YOU~

Stephen-I am now on Feet patrol...looking for more pics~ ;-D
DEZMOND said…
I love those pear shaped tomatoes! I'm lucky I live in a country in which we still buy our veggies and fruit at the green markets and not in malls and shops.