Thursday, January 15, 2015

BE STILL

For Christmas I received a class called BE STILL-52.   It is a class about photography and finding calm by Kim Klassen.
YOU can see Kim's work here!   She is so talented-her photos have this ethereal quality, calmness and charm.

  I am sharing my first assignment.  Each week for 52 weeks of the year I will share a photo.  I am trying to find more calm in my world-so I hope to reflect this in my photos.  

Honestly,  I am a bit overwhelmed.  I don't have any professional editing software.  Right now, I am using  PicMonkey.   I  like all of their options and easy access,  but I can see many of the class members have taken her classes before or have the software I want to own-someday. Some members are professionals.   Then I think it doesn't matter-it is a learning process and we all have to start somewhere.  

My word for  2015 is BOLD.   I like to be creative, but I struggle putting myself out there.  It goes back to the bullying days of my youth.  I see these bullies on FB and I can still hear their taunts.  I was bullied in elementary, middle school and my so called friend in high school said rotten things about a group of girls and when she was cornered told them, I did it.   Six mean, bruiting Tomboy- like girls torturing me down the halls of my high school.  I didn't know my so called friend did this, but I found out.  

 No wonder-I am an introvert!  

Long story short-with all the school comments about my art, starting at 4th grade on up.  I feel panicked to share myself, sometimes.  I recently watched a documentary about Vivian Maier's photos.   She kept her creative side hidden-how sad.  It takes a lot of gumption and guts to put yourself out there, be open to ridicule, and insidious comments.  

 Most of the time our art reflects our inner world, our memories, our thoughts, our opinions-it is difficult to express how much we are tangled in our creativity.  'L@@k at me',  is part of the process.  I struggle with this part.  I worry will I come off like I am bragging if I was published.    I can feel my inner child cringe, when I share my art, my news, and sometimes my poems.   It does gets easier- the more we do it.  I know no one is immune, when we hit publish, share a snapshot, share our book-any facet of ourselves is a risk.   I know I need a stronger backbone.   Any thoughts or where I can get one?!


bold
bōld/
adjective
  1. 1.
    (of a person, action, or idea) showing an ability to take risks; confident and courageous.
    "a bold attempt to solve the crisis"
    synonyms:daringintrepidbravecourageousvaliant, valorous, fearless,dauntlessaudaciousdaredevilMore

  2. 2.
    (of a color or design) having a strong or vivid appearance.
    "a coat with bold polka dots"

noun
  1. 1.
    a bold typeface or letter.
    "difficult words and phrases are highlighted in bold"



How do you feel when you share?   Do you feel too 

exposed-sometimes?!



I would love to hear your thoughts on how to handle your 

inner doubt.   Damn,those demons that still follow us 

through childhood and haunt us.  




 “And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."

                                                          - Anaïs Nin




Monday, January 12, 2015

Sad-

I am behind in life these days.   I saw my daughter come and go. She is back at college, classes resumed today.  She packed most of the items in her room to move into an apartment in April.  I am sad, I won't have another summer with her.  She will be home for spring break and then we help her move hours away.

My beloved four legged hound past away after the New Year.  I took him to the vet last month. We discovered he had Cushing's disease, but they couldn't rule out liver cancer. He lasted a month and I saw he was suffering and I had to do the right thing.  My heart hurts~

 My son actually got a puppy yesterday that resembles our beagle who had one spot on his forehead.  The puppy's name is Wade Wilson.  Yes, based on the comic book character in Deadpool.  This hound has two spots on his forehead in the shape of the number 8.   I haven't seen him, yet, but plan to meet him this weekend.  I did receive some photos.



Rest in Peace my humble hound!  We miss you, Buster~    My son Larry named our beagle after
Bugs Bunny's son Buster from Tiny Toons


Thank you, Buster for all  the love n' joy you gave us~



 Wade Wilson-my son's puppy.












Wednesday, December 24, 2014

Love, Light and Laughter

I hope your holiday season is filled with love, light and laughter~ 






 
I hope the magic of the season melts your heart!

Saturday, December 20, 2014

Tis the Season for Busy

We are all busy!

I am sad, I wanted to be fun and share craft ideas this month, but it has been a challenging time.  I became a bit blue after Thanksgiving.  I felt like a human yo-yo stuck on Rock the Cradle.   I went through albums of photos and wondered how time had gone so quickly?!   I miss my kids, their laughter and hugs most.  I play music loud and imagine they are here.  I am lucky we talk almost every day, but I still miss their magic!!  

My hound has been ill-first thought it was cancer, but it is his thyroid and maybe Cushings disease.  He lost significant weight and we found a lump near his thyroid.  His thyroid is compromised and we are waiting to see if this medicine will help.  



Are you ready for the holiday?!  I still have some last minute things to do and I always like to wrap up a few uniquely creative ideas. I made snowballs out of cotton battening and inside tucked a gift card.  The recipient will have fun unwrapping this snowball-it doesn't melt.  Okay, it might melt someone's heart-if the gift pulls one's heart strings.  I could see an engagement ring being at the end or some sentimental token!  I cut a strip of battening 4 inches wide and 2 ft long, some I have done 3 ft in length.   Mine are going to be the jokey kind-this year.  


You can tuck jokes, fortune cookie sayings, charms, silly or sweet sentiments along the way.  It is fun to watch someone unwind a snowball.  Snow, sentiment and smiles-I love a few fun gifts~
I pinned the end and added silver tulle bags and fortune cookies-this was my first attempt.  I added a heart stone. You do not have to pin the end, just tuck and roll around the items.  I was mailing this one and didn't want it to come undone.



Next year, I plan on blogging more and be more brave.  I want my art to be bold and colorful.   
I need to go downtown and take an art class, perhaps test the waters and see if teaching is an option?!  Bold will be my word for 2015.  Do you have a word picked out?


I did get one of my wishes-sort of!  I wanted to be on the cover of an art magazine.  I wanted my art on the cover-didn't happen, but my name is on there instead.  I am hopeful if I keep going maybe, just maybe my dream will come true~

Thank you, Danielle Mohler and Stampington for adding sunshine to my life~ Your publications have been a saving grace for me, through all those military moves!  I could always count on your magazines, your gorgeous photos and grace filled words to fill my heart with joy!  I have to pinch myself to believe I am in your publications!  It is a dream come true~



I made an Advent calendar out of red threads, Glassine bags and vintage photos, Washi tape and charms.  I have been trying every day to do something for someone else.  I wanted to tangle myself in humanity.  I am a loner type and with my children gone-this project has kept me busy.   Some ideas are simple, let people ahead of me in line and others I have to give away my gloves or my hat-to someone who looks cold, helping with groceries, opening doors, buying a stranger a cup of coffee-pay it forward type gestures.   So, far it has been fun and I feel like an elf~
Thank you, Stampington~


I also made a 5x5 square of art and mailed it to artist and author, Seth Apter.  Seth asks artists about their process. His books are insightful and inspirational!  My square is in a gallery in Connecticut-crazy to think of!  Thank you, Seth, for all you share and do~  It is a thrill to be part of this project!  Seth's books offer an inside look of artist's secrets, dreams, tips and tricks.  It will make you want to create and battle any creative blocks~

***Seth's photo**

Quote sister, Lesley Riley came out with her second quote book!  

I was stunned to see one of my cards in her book !
Do you have a favorite quote?!


One hundred artists are included and one hundred and thirty quotes~  This book would snap anyone out of a creative funk!  I gasped when I saw some of the gorgeous art paired with beautiful words~  In fact this book inspired me to make art!  Thank you, Lesley this book would be a beautiful gift for any holiday or celebration!


I am reminded, even though I have been blue-how incredible fortunate I am!  Thank you Seth, Lesley and Stampington!!!  

Thank you bloggers for being you-
"You all have warmed my heart!" 

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

Gift Idea for Social Media Fans

I have two teens and a few twenty somethings on my Christmas list this year.  I made art recently using Instagram photos.  If you are like me and uncertain what to give this age group for a gift-I can help!   Yes, everyone wants the latest, greatest gadgets, but this gift is sentimental and heartfelt.  A gift for all those Sugar Plums on your nice list!  

I have been sad lately-I think it is a combo of adjusting to the empty nest, a lingering cold and darkness.  I feel like a human yo-yo!   I am happy my kids are home, sad my kids are gone and it goes back n' forth.  I have in the past avoided my feelings, too busy to process this or that, but I know better.

I think I sent one of the most memorable care packages in my family tree, to my daughter in October.    I  made art out of some of my daughter's and my Instagram photos.   I was inspired by this quote from poet, Mary Oliver.

"Instructions for Life:  Pay attention.  Be astonished.  
Tell about it."   
  
-Mary Oliver




My art  was published in  Somerset Memories.  Thank you to Jana Holstein for being so kind.  Some of my charms had fallen off and she glued them back on-Jana you are the best!   I would of loved to seen my daughter's face, when she opened her care package from me and discovered herself gracing the pages of this wonderful publication!   There was a lot of laughter and OMGs over the phone!




I found this fabulous site called Print Studio where you can upload your Instagram or digital photos and have them printed into books, photos, posters, buttons, stickers, posters and cards and more.  

I love this gift! You are using their collective memories as part of the gift!  I love the idea of tiny books and buttons from photos-so many options!  So, if you don't know their password you can give them a gift card or use your own digital photos to tell their story. Either way there is a lot of heart in this gift of gathered memories.  Sentiment always brings smiles!


I hope you are well and found a lot of fabulous finds for Christmas!  Me, I am still working on my list-

Did you see those tiny books-aren't they cute!   


Monday, November 17, 2014

Open Garden






The World According to Gray Wings


dripping light
 filters day's blue quilt
as ballerina twirls honey bleached wax
onto sea's
web of diamonds n' lace
perched on worn gray wharf
my mind-a buoy
bobs up n' down in 
tangled seaweed's brine
my feather floats
for an angel
her thin skin ripples
as her edges of courage curl
heart bruised by
 a skipping rock
tossed by the Polka dot girls
her heart's fragile edges
wash onto shoal of 
memories-

A sign from Grandfather Sky
fringes light on my gift
reminds
Diamonds in the rough
to shine.





©Ella Wilson 



















Saturday, November 8, 2014

Imaginary Garden is Transforming

Hannah, offered a prompt  for Transforming Friday-sorry, I am late. 
Antelope Canyon, USA-is hauntingly beautiful! 

"The Navajo name for Upper Antelope Canyon is Tsé bighánílíní, which means "the place where water runs through rocks" and the Lower Antelope Canyon is Hazdistazí or "spiral rock arches." Both are located within the LeChee Chapter of the Navajo Nation."  -Thank you, Hannah  for this magical prompt~

(A beam of light in Upper Antelope Canyon
in Arizona. Lucas Löffler wiki cc)







Secret Love Child



The Antelope knows of their secret love child-
Tears from the sun fall often
  she casts off  her ribbons of sunset 
Cadence of patterns shift 
speak of their union
 moon remembers nightly he paints with moonbeams-
shadow puppets for his child.

Honey eyed girl-her face is scrubbed pink by sands of time
wind is her caregiver-

Our sweet girl will never know muddy green of day 
or see the ocean's kiss
Mom's loosened curls spiral downward 
and tickle her daughter's face
the glow of her peach skin tilts upward
 towards her parents' slow waltz

Tousled light reflects halos of gold
tunneled n' trapped like flowing caramel kisses.

Sign Language helps parents cope
their unhinged happiness
like Origami folds
as gently wind protects their girl 
and paints mirrors of her parent's light
within. 

©Ella Wilson