Saturday, April 30, 2016

Y and Z

I had a migraine all day-yesterday.  Finally, gave in to BC powder for relief, when I found out my son and his hound, Wade would be coming over to stay for three days. The apartment below him had water damage and it is so, bad-it is a miracle my son's tub didn't fall through the floor.  The wedding is on May 4th-may the fourth/force be with you.   I still have the wedding flowers to finish.  The bride will be by soon to hopeful approve. I texted her photos-so, far so good.  It takes 25 paper petals to make one rose.   I also have to hem my son's suit pants.  Augh~

But, damn it
I have to finish~

Y is for Yoga.

I am no bendy Barbie.
Did you know there is a Yoga Barbie~
 I love the benefits of yoga.
The calmness I feel after a work out and it is the only exercise one can do that massages your internal organs-kinda cool.
Seriously, the Fish pose helps your thyroid gland-the master gland of the body.

 


Z is for Zen.
I am craving this vibe, but don't think I will feel it anytime soon.
I know one has to make, take time.   Book stores and nature walks give me this Zen vibe, what about you?

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I wish I had participated more in the A-Z Challenge.  Life tossed me some curve balls-but that's life.  I hope to be a better blogger, after Mercury goes out of retrograde~ 
We had three Media com trucks in the neighborhood this week-so, hopefully our internet will improve~     

Thursday, April 28, 2016

X is for X-tra

X is for X-tra.

Today,  I am going to share some X-tra  insight.  I was going to use the post for P and somehow I didn't.    I struggle with meditation. These days sitting  and quieting my mind-is difficult.   My thyroid is hyper right now-when this happens-I am accused of having ADD.   I am fine, when my thyroid levels are my normal.  Stress usually throws me off track and last month, when my son was seriously ill-I knew it would likely alter my levels.  It did.

   My doctor is from India, so I asked him a lot of questions-about meditation.  It all started the day I wore my prayer beads.  He asked me, "Do you meditate?"   Of course I mentioned-I tried.     My daughter gave me the beads-as a gift.  She tries to meditate and we discussed how these beads are like rosary beads and prayers.  My doctor explained to me-that meditation is a process-which takes time.  You are unfolding the layers of the mind and releasing  thoughts. When he said this-I thought of the petals of a flower opening.  




 Thoughts are like a bouquet of balloons.  

Open your mind and watch your thoughts like balloons.  Notice the orbs of colors floating towards the sky, upward  into the wind until they are out of sight.  You don't grab the balloons-thoughts, you just note they are there.    Release these ideas-which loop into your stream of consciousness.  
You will get better the more you try and it will change your world.
  


(Now, I am seeing Pop-up Videos-do you remember that show on VH1?!)




Yes, observe your thoughts, like rainbow colored balloons-try not to grab the balloons' strings.  


 *Illustrator, Nicoletta Ceccoli





Yes, this is what I feel like, when I try to meditate. 
I know  what you are thinking:  feathers n' poo.


"Happiness needs no accessories, for it is in itself omnipotent.  It takes hold in the heart, builds its nest, and brings forth its own birds to sing for you." -Mary Brooks Picken


My daughter shared a  meditation-she read about.  You simply count pebbles or beads.  She had read about monks doing this while concentrating on acts of kindness.   
She told me to breathe in and out as I counted the pebbles or beads to help tune out my outer world.   She reminded me when my thoughts start to wander like clouds-to concentrate on my breath. 






You could do this with buttons, shells, even dried beans. 
I would love to hear if you try this and see what happens.  The first
time I did-I used a tin full of vintage buttons.
Family memories big and small tucked between Irish pennants. It was peaceful and distracted me.








Wednesday, April 27, 2016

W is for Worry

W is for Worry. 


I have a tendency from my mom to project the outcome of any endeavor.   I believe my mother uses it as a coping mechanism.  This way she is  prepared for the worst outcome.  It saddens me to think of all the time and emotion wasted on worry.  I do it, too. 

 My daughter is in college and  called the other day telling me about this dreaded project with a partner.   "What if.... and what if so n' so doesn't do his half of the project?"    "We are using google doc and if he doesn't do his work-I will have to."  


"YOU are projecting the worst outcome." 
The project hadn't started-yet, but my girl was already in a sea of turmoil.  
The sea of worry building on a rogue wave that may not appear.


I reminded her,  "You are wasting time-none of this may happen." "You could be getting your other work done, laughing, or exercising instead of worrying.  Go, do something you enJOY-for a few minutes.
Sad thing is-it did happen.  
Her partner wouldn't text her back, didn't do his work and left her with  the burden of  finishing the project, but both parties had to turn in their own references for the work, quoted research and individual assignments.   The professor emailed my daughter and knows-what is going on. 

Worry is like the common cold-there is no cure.  

We can visualize and use small escapes to downsize our anxiety-hobbies we enjoy, music, writing, movement-like walking.  

Drumming helps me.  Funny thing is I don't own a drum.  So, I pound and tap what I have around me.  It puts me into the now, I get to pound the heck out of something,  and no one gets hurt.  


Do we need a medicine cabinet shelf with ideas for anxiety and worry?  Nah,  but maybe we can make list of distractions that can help us worry less-like those over the counter meds we get when we are fighting a cold: cough drops, tissues, nasal spray and cough syrup.

How do you manage worry? 







Tuesday, April 26, 2016

V is for Vulnerability

V is for Vulnerability.


Being vulnerable helps us reveal our authentic self.   
For me-it is about revealing an inner obstacle. If I share my truth-the burden seems to lift a bit. Maybe because someone-I love reminds me to think like a little red caboose.

 "I think I can, I think I can...."
 
Being human and showing we have limitations opens our world to
creating stronger relationships.  We all are flawed and have many facets
of our personality to share.

We are diamonds in the rough-glowing with energy and passion-when we allow our spirit to take the challenge-we can move mountains-at least ".... I think we can!" 



I think of a camera lens and how taking a photo of myself feels like crawling out on tree limb.
I feel exposed!



WE all have freeze-frame moments in life, but once we face them-we become
stronger.


How do you handle being vulnerable?

 






Monday, April 25, 2016

U is for Universe

U is for Universe.


We all  owe ourselves a peaceful universe and deserve mindful escapes.  
I try to schedule mine like an appointment and add these time outs  to my To-do list. 



Lately, my universe is too fast.  I feel overwhelmed with should, could and would I- in my life.  
I am making wedding decorations and feel fear building like the moon playing tug of war with the ocean's tides.  So, I am going to take these moments and focus on something I enjoy.  Panic never  me get anywhere.  I feel like the spiraling energy inside this hands-like a dog chasing his tail. 

  Funny, that childhood song is playing in my head:  "He's got the whole world in his hands."  

What simple joys help you cope with stress and calm your universe?

 


Saturday, April 23, 2016

S is for Self Sabotage and T is for Trust

S is for Self-Sabotage.


I sometimes get in my own way. This nagging voice of doubt loops unkind thoughts throughout my day.  Sometimes, I can be my worst enemy.  Avoidance-happens.

I feel bad-then panic, anxiety and exhaustion join in. 


 Debbie Downer's dialogue plays over in my head. I need to stop the chatter and reset my inner voice.  The I'm not good enough, or this will never work have worn out their welcome. 

I find to break these stream of consciousness-I work on something I am good at.  It reminds me what I have to offer. 

How do you prevent self sabotage?   


T is for Trust and thundershowers.
Our internet was down and out due to the weather-yesterday.   So, I decided to combine S and T.   
I hope the weather is good where you are~




Trust

Trust yourself. Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life. Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny, inner sparks of possibility into flames of achievement. Golda Meir
Read more at: http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/topics/topic_trust.html

"Trust yourself. Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life. Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny, inner sparks of possibility into flames of achievement."

               - Golda Meir

 
Trust yourself. Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life. Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny, inner sparks of possibility into flames of achievement. Golda Meir
Read more at: http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/topics/topic_trust.html

Trust yourself. Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life. Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny, inner sparks of possibility into flames of achievement. Golda Meir
Read more at: http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/topics/topic_trust.html

 

Thursday, April 21, 2016

R is for Restore

R is for Restore. 

Recently, I had an idea and shared it with someone, who could further my career.  They used it for their benefit. 
I am torn on how to handle this situation, other than release it and restore my spirit.    I am hurt and trying to not to over react-but I was going to use the idea for another season.  I guess when we release things into the universe-we must remember 
all is fair in love, art and war. 

 I guess this is one of those soul growth opportunities. 


How do you restore your faith-when you feel taken advantage of?
I guess, I have to release this to the universe. Emotional, I feel a bit trampled on.



Clare Cooper Marcus, an emeritus professor in landscape architecture at the University of California, Berkeley:
"Spending time interacting with nature in a well-designed garden won’t cure your cancer or heal a badly burned leg. But there is good evidence it can reduce your levels of pain and stress—and, by doing that, boost your immune system in ways that allow your own body and other treatments to help you heal."


 So, maybe spring's seedlings offer us a chance to replot and redesign our lives.  I know, I feel better when I am restoring my garden with hope.  So, I guess I need to plant new seeds and seedlings to restore my spirit. I know I need to replant: Thyme and Faith~

How do you restore your spirit?


Wednesday, April 20, 2016

Q is for Quiet

Q is for Quiet.

I use to crave quiet, when my nest was full. I would hear my kids argue- "It's my turn", "Ma-did you wash my uniform?"  "Whose turn is it to the let the dog out?"  "I missed the bus."...etc.  

I couldn't wait to find a quiet moment in my day.  I worked in a fitness facility-where there was loud music, the cranking of the machines, gossip and woe is me stories at the water cooler, and a few proud peacocks strutting their stuff.  




Maybe we should add quiet to our to-do lists.  

Early mornings-when I step out on my back deck, I hear the birds chirping, the wind waltzing with the trees, and embrace my world waking up. It is short lived before I hear the kids next door argue on their way to the bus stop, the motorcycles reviving their engines-we have three in my neighborhood-this creates a scolding session of barking, by my puppy-Maggie. 



We miss sound, when it becomes our background music-even the noise.  When my daughter went to college-I started cranking her favorite tunes-loud.  I missed my kids' energy, their sounds and noise.   My son left a bit before, but he was rarely here-work, college, girlfriend.  He would game some nights until 2am and his laughter would wake me. 

Now, the kids' sounds come and go.  My son was here last weekend-with his two dogs. So, three dogs barking.  He has a beagle/lab mix  who howls a haunting song when a firetruck goes off. 

 I miss their moments of magic.  These days,  I have a rotation of quiet and then sound and noise.  My daughter will be home for a few weeks in May.   My house will breath differently-there will be singing-she and her fiance were both in a cappella groups and Brenden beat boxes.  
  It will be Iced coffee and youtube videos-they will sing and perform and then say,
"Let's watch a tiny house show."



 How do you find moments of quiet?  
Someone said to me-"We need more quiet when we get older"
I don't agree-what do you think?

I have always needed quiet even when I was really young.  I was an only child for 6 1/2 years-before my baby brother arrived with colic.  Quiet time-for me is time to create, to connect the dots of color in my day, to surf my memories and connect with my soul.  



 In solitude, I can sift the shore of my memories and find treasure.


When it is quiet-I notice the signs spirit sends me~

Where is your favorite place to find quiet?

I didn't notice at first, but there are a lot of birds in this post-perhaps quiet gives our ideas-a chance to soar, to dream and bask in the sunlight. 


Tuesday, April 19, 2016

P is for Patience

P is for Patience.

We see the lack of it everyday-the angry person in the check-out line, road rage, the ATM won't work, a parent loosing control their with a child, etc.  

 I have been patiently waiting for the Fiddlehead ferns to unfurl. 


Then we see how bad tempers and behavior can enable the
squeaky wheels getting their grease, first. 



"According to a 2007 study by Fuller Theological Seminary professor Sarah A. Schnitker and UC Davis psychology professor Robert Emmons, patient people tend to experience less depression and negative emotions, perhaps because they can cope better with upsetting or stressful situations. They also rate themselves as more mindful and feel more gratitude, more connection to mankind and to the universe, and a greater sense of abundance." 


Are patient people happier? 

Other studies suggest yes-because patient people still have hope!

We all can lose our patience-but practicing gratitude, being mindful when you notice your mood change and start to feel angry-take a deep breath.  Try to calm down-one article I read said, 
 "Is this worth a heart attack?"  No, so adjust your feelings to the situation. 

You can try to look at the world with different eyes. Maybe this person is sick or having a bad day, or maybe you are wasting time focusing on the late person, the disgruntled person in line.  Those 15-20 minutes can be best spent elsewhere. 

I know easier said than done, but: 



Patient people are more likely to achieve their goals! 

"According to Schnitker’s analysis, that greater satisfaction with achieving their goals explained why these patient achievers were more content with their lives as a whole."


  

Monday, April 18, 2016

O is for Observe

 O is for Observe.

I feel change on the horizon.  I know-I need to stand back, observe, consider what  I want to do.  I need to be still,  wait and observe my thoughts, before I jump into the next endeavor.  



Sometimes when we take time out and observe progress happens. It might be slow like a waltz before it evolves with energy.   Being open and embracing time offers our hearts and minds to observe with eyes wide open.   It allows the situation to give you new insight, a new idea, or maybe just a necessary time out.   

Maybe when our heart is open, so is our mind~

Or 
Maybe it is the moon's energy that is throwing my life off track.  I swear-I have never see so, many changes like I have in the last five days.  I tried to make plans around others, who would affect my time to write and create.   I knew I had this window of time-and it kept changing, until I woke up with  P for panic.  

I finally said it isn't in my hands anymore. I have done all I can and it is in God's hands.  


So, I observed the situation, knowing I could only do what I can and the panic that ebbed and flowed like a rogue wave-dissipated. 

Maybe being open helped me observe things differently?!
Do you observe things before you act?

 

Saturday, April 16, 2016

N is for Now

N is for Now. 

Yesterday, I was struggling with this word, at the doctor's office, in grocery lines and coming home to the internet being down-again.  Now, was making me irritable and sad.

It is hard to be in the moment, sometimes.  My mind plays Leap Frog-skipping ahead, to what if and I need to do this, and that.  Before I know it-I am playing Hopscotch with my to-do list, planning for a future event, imagining the best, the worst and now my head  hurts from all the mental aerobics.  


I need to redirect the movie playing inside my head---cut!
I have let my emotions control the scene, not what is really happening-in the now. 

  There is power in the present moments-so I am going to try to focus on one thing at a time. Easier said than done, but today I am going to just drink my tea, just walk my puppy and watch her enjoy the grass and sunshine, and maybe just appreciate this moment's joy and brilliance. 

I'll try just for now~

Do you have a hard time with the now or have you tackled and embraced the gifts of the present moment?

 * I didn't drink this cup-what the heck are the flecks and flakes?!  But, I did make another cup and go inside.  We are still having March winds~

 
Our puppy, Maggie was tired from her walk and took time out.  Dogs are great with now~


My daughter taking a photo of some tulips.  Technology has helped some with the now.
Sometimes it is too much-when I see people sitting at restaurants sharing a meal and instead of talking they are texting other people.  When my kids come to visit and we watch a movie, I spy them texting on their phones.  So, we all struggle with now.   

Have you found a way to be in the Now?



Friday, April 15, 2016

M is for Meditation

Do you meditate?  
I do, but not in the traditional sense.

Walking has this meditative quality for me.  I find I can process my thoughts differently, using nature as a backdrop.   I always feel different, calmer when I use my third eye-my camera-lol to see the world differently.   Being creative has this labyrinth-like feel.  I spiral inward connecting memories,  symbols and colors-to portray an idea or a memory. 

  I think of music sometimes being a way to get to another place in time.  Meditation for me is an escape-a time out where my soul can connect with what makes me happy.   Sometimes the scent of lavender or making tea will get me into a trance like state   What works for you?!


A reflection in a puddle, as the rock god sun decides to reappear~ 


Thursday, April 14, 2016

L is for Let Go

L could be about  love, when we let go we make room for new things to enter our lives.  It isn't easy to let go-break free from the hold of what is playing tug of war with our hearts and minds.

 Enough is enough-release your burden and find a new path to walk, a different way to process the energy.  You might get a better outcome.   Letting go is a promise to find another way to be.  Trusting in spirit and in what we believe-frees us~  It resets your guidance-your GPS-when you Let Go~






Listen to your heart!


I am struggling with an art project-I hoped to finish.  I started it before my daughter came home for spring break and then my son became seriously ill.  I am tortured by it-stuck.  I have so, many ideas, but when I look at this art-I can't process how to finish it.  I just see it bringing me back to all these feelings-I am still trying to process.  So, I am letting it go.  It wasn't meant to be.  I will start something new.  Maybe I will come back to it and create something else-another day.  For now, I will listen to my heart.  

It is kinda odd, my art is heart shaped~   

I found this quote and it describes how I feel.  
Have you let go of a project and come back to it later on?!  

 

Wednesday, April 13, 2016

J is for Journaling and K is for Key

I had a sinus headache all day, yesterday.   I think allergies and the weather's mood didn't help.  It rained all day yesterday.  My head still hurts.  I have a doctor's appointment-tomorrow.  

J is for Journaling, but not in the traditional sense.  





 I started creating art like this, when I became tired of  people  reading my heART felt words.   This kind of journaling is visual and offers a freedom to share insight, yet keep your private thoughts-private.



Yes, there is a child's face in the pansy.



I think of journaling as being like a secret garden. I  created a key hole cover for one of my journals.


Journaling can be done in many ways-whether it be in writing or in other artistic forms.  It is a way to pluck and prune the blooms and thorns in your heart. It is exhausting to keep those feelings tucked away. If you are worried like me of someone discovering your words-leave hints and clues with images and a few thoughts.  Poetry is a secret language you can use or add a quote you love. 



Here I placed a Starbucks napkin, Post-its, random scraps of paper and note cards- onto a piece of black card stock.   In Hemingway fashion, I tend to write on everything.   I used a stencil and spray painted the image gray.  You can see the colors of the notes appear-like a rainbow.    I wanted to create the mood of finding a rainbow in the gray garden of my thoughts.   I added Tim Holtz word tags to write my message.  


There is freedom in expressing one's soul in a journal.  The key is to do it-whether it be with pen, pencil, paint and brushes or photos. When we unlock our emotions we can focus on the now. Most of us are great at  having compassion for others, but the real key is to make time and have it for yourselves. Wandering thoughts can be gathered in the safety net of a journal.  It is a home where we can purge our thoughts in a healthy way.



Journaling helps my spirit stay well.  
Do you journal?  What kind of key do you use? 




Monday, April 11, 2016

I is for Intuition

You know that nagging voice-the gut feeling you get-to go for something or avoid it.  It seems our  nervous system taps into our body's messages before our brain does.  Do  you listen to your inner voice and perhaps drive another path-to avoid something, don't go to the movies or a function, because you have this lingering thought that you aren't quite sure of.   Your senses nudge you with something is going to happen.    Do you listen to your intuition?   Your body has this  sixth sense and  is often misunderstood.  

Maybe the body picked up clues, before the gray mattered mind fully processed the what if's.  We often hear, "about a mother's intuition", but I have seen my husband have moments of insight, too.  

Based on yoga and Ayurveda medicine the body holds seven energy fields called Chakras.  Between your eyebrows lies an energy field called the Third Eye.



 
"Beverly Rubik,  is a UC Berkeley-trained biophysicist,.......at her Oakland, California-based Institute for Frontier Science,.   Rubik studies the "biofield," the purported life-force energy that is called qi in Chinese martial arts, prana in yoga, and other things in other traditions. She wants to prove the existence of the biofield, calling it "the next step" in science, which would "explain more deeply how the mind works and how the body responds to various types of alternative therapies" that the medical establishment disdains. Proving the existence of the biofield would prove too that the human body is more than "just a bag of biomolecules," asserts Rubik, who describes her current project as "investigating high-frequency brainwaves that may be involved in higher states of consciousness."


So, what do you think?   Have you had an intuitive moment that make you believe the sixth sense is real and deserves this attention or do you think it is malarkey?! 
The Sanskrit word Chakra literally translates to wheel or disk. In yoga, meditation, and Ayurveda, this term refers to wheels of energy throughout the body. There are seven main chakras, which align the spine, starting from the base of the spine through to the crown of the head. To visualize a chakra in the body, imagine a swirling wheel of energy where matter and consciousness meet. This invisible energy, called Prana, is vital life force, which keeps us vibrant, healthy, and alive. - See more at: http://www.chopra.com/ccl/what-is-a-chakra#sthash.nyTkRsZU.dpuf
The Sanskrit word Chakra literally translates to wheel or disk. In yoga, meditation, and Ayurveda, this term refers to wheels of energy throughout the body. There are seven main chakras, which align the spine, starting from the base of the spine through to the crown of the head. To visualize a chakra in the body, imagine a swirling wheel of energy where matter and consciousness meet. This invisible energy, called Prana, is vital life force, which keeps us vibrant, healthy, and alive. - See more at: http://www.chopra.com/ccl/what-is-a-chakra#sthash.nyTkRsZU.dpuf
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